Hourglass

I decided to check what my measurements meant in inches and wow I was so amazed I'm have an hourglass figure with measurements of 42-34-42! 

But... I've also still not been too good this week. *sigh* Reaching that 30kg weight loss mark... I seem to be making it harder for myself!

Emotional Eating

It has been kind of hectic in the office of late. I can't believe it's only January! At night I look forward to going to bed, recharging and then beginning my day again with as much energy as possible. Unfortunately, one of the "side effects" of having to cope with hectic-ness coupled with the intended arrival of that time of the month, is wanting to eat! I have been eating what is stated on the food plan but just more of it. For example, I have 3 pieces of fruit instead of the prescribed 2 or I end up having 6 biscuits instead of the prescribed 2 or 4. I feel the more pressed I am, the more I seek comfort in food. 

So Yvonne asks me last night, would you like to be stressed and put on weight or stressed and with the current weight loss. Of course with the weight loss it would be good! The only way around this is to be very mindful and take out the stress on something else.

Thank goodness there's dance class tonight!

I can't believe I did that

Sometimes when I really want to eat or try something, I put a spoonful into my mouth and then chew it a bit, feel it on my tongue and then get a tissue and just make sure it's out. I did that when I was in the States. There was this really yummy looking cinnamon bread and butter pudding type of dessert and I was getting mixed reviews. Some of them told me it was not worth my time to try, some others told me that it was really nice. So to satisfy my curiousity, I placed a spoonful in my mouth, realized that it was something that I wanted to eat or should eat and made sure it came out without me having to swallow.

I can't believe I did that. I hardly did that before. Or in fact even never.

The same happened today with my mum's famous mee hoon fried noodles. For some reason, the taste just did not go so well with my tongue today. And so I made sure it came out again.

I can't believe I did that to my mum's cooking! She's the best cook in the whole wide world! 

I think one time I said to Shane I felt like having a Ribena, so she suggested I mix a little bit in a glass, swirl the taste around in my mouth and spit it out. At that point in time when she told me, it seemed silly but it looks like this is becoming a practice as of now! Just to get a taste... it may not be worth it when you actually consume it. But I know eventually, when I get to Phase 2 and 3, things will begin to change how I approach food. 

This is certainly an interesting adventure!

Mummy, am I thin enough?

I asked my mum that question the other day and she quickly replies, "No, not yet. You have the shape but keep going." Actually I know that's also the answer! There are people who are telling me that I look good as is and that I don't have to go any further. 

I am very grateful for my mum's support and she knows how much this means to me. She is seeing the difference it is making to my life and she is thinking for the long term too. She holds the intention I will be healthy in my old age and to be healthy in your old age, it is best to take action right now.

Mummy always knows best! 

Getting Back on Track

I can't believe its only been about two weeks since I got back from my trip! I feel like I have done so much in such a short span of time. I've been getting back on track with the food plan. Getting back on track with work. Getting back on track with the singing and clarinet lessons. Getting back on track with the Brunei Speakers' Club. And now, it's time to get back on track with the physical activities! 

When I was in the States, I managed 4 walks, all one hour each. And it felt so good to be able to do that and appreciate the scenery at the same time. I felt it certainly helped me not put on weight while I was in the land of so much food I could eat!

I went for a walk with Elaine this morning at Bukit Shahbandar and I felt I have made so much progress compared to the previous few times we have been together. Not having the excess weight certainly helps! I don't feel that I have to carry such a burden anymore. And Elaine shared with me that she has discovered this little aerobics place in Kiulap in front of Lilli Lingerie. It's worth checking out so we have agreed on Monday at 7pm we'll do one class together.

Balancing exercise, work, family time, social time and me time is now important to me. I still remember myself 1 year ago when we were "assessing" where do we spend parts of our life and under health, in terms of percentage, it was a ZERO. At that point in time, yes I cared about my health but I was not willing to do anything about it. Wow, it sure has changed big time! And I'm really grateful I had that wake up call amongst other wake up calls.

So starting next week, exercise three times a week. Aerobics on Monday, Dance Lessons on Wednesday and Walks on Sunday! 

Life is GOOD! 

Are you on a crash diet?

A lot of people at work are starting to notice the weight loss. A lot of them have asked me how I do it. And I got asked by one colleague, are you on a crash diet? I was like no no no! I probably would have in the past but now I know I don't have to!

Wikipedia says:

A crash diet is a diet which is extreme in its nutritional deprivations, typically severely restricting calorie intake. It is meant to achieve rapid weight loss and may differ from outright starvation only slightly. They are not meant to last for long periods of time, at most a few weeks. Importantly, the term specifically implies a lack of concern for proper nutrition.

I am proud to say that I have been eating really well and healthy over the past few months and that I care about the quality of food more than anything else. On top of that, I am not depriving myself. My body is getting what it needs. I just feel good with what I'm doing now. I sometimes go into "I miss eating that" mode but I realize it's only just a thought that can be changed!

My Tape Measure and I

I'm learning the importance of measuring myself. There are some days where the weight won't go down but the measurements will still continue to do so and you will be amazed that you're still shrinking even though the weight hovers around the same weight. I have no scientific knowledge why this happens and I've not yet done any research on this myself.

But as with all things, measuring yourself and I submit my results to Shane on a weekly basis really takes discipline! I do believe the tape measure and I have a good relationship. And to involve other people in your success, ask them to help you in measuring yourself. 

So here are my current statistics:

Weight: 91.9kg

Waist: 87cm

Hips: 109.5cm

Thigh: 68.5cm

Chest: 108cm

Arm: 35.6cm

Total: 408.6cm

Total Weight Lost: 27.2kg

Total Measurements Lost: 47.3cm

I can't believe it, only 3 more kilograms to reaching the 30kg weight loss mark! 

It's Weird

It's weird. I lose weight and I first worry about the attention I'm going to get from members of the opposite sex and so then guess what happens? I don't get any attention at all! Be careful what you wish for! 

But lately, I think it's because I feel more comfortable with my physical being that I am contemplating on venturing into the dating world again. I almost used Facebook as a mechanism to "seek potentials" by posting something on my status but decided against it! It will happen when I least expect it.

New Year Resolutions

I am just amazed how this year I personally know people who have embarked on some sort of weight loss program. Whether they signed up for one or whether it's one they have created based on their own research, it doesn't matter which one they do, it's actually all about taking action! And I'm proud for each and everyone of them because I can safely say, I know how it feels like to finally coming to terms with it.

I now have 3 colleagues who are undergoing their own adventures in weight loss and it is so wonderful for me to know that we are all in it together! It's all about supporting one another and being one another's inspiration. They are already inspiring me with at least a 1kg to 2kg weight loss!

I commend them and my friends for their courage, their determination and their love for life and themselves by taking care of the physical being that houses their beautiful spirit! Don't be afraid of the light and the greatness within!

Holiday Diet

I really did my best to stick to the food plan while I was away in the States. I was so tempted because there's just so much good food out there but I resisted most of the time. I did succumb to a hot chocolate. Actually I was convinced that there would be this great hot chocolate place in Mendocino but when I went there, it was not the same anymore. It dawned upon me that the last I had the wonderful hot chocolate was 3 years ago! 

Towards the end of the trip and on the journey back home, I did "break" some rules. I ended up having rice and bread because I was so hungry on the plane and I knew I was eating less than my portion size.

I remember Yvonne said to me, "Don't feel guilty ok?" I was starting to feel guilty but I kept hearing Vinod's and Mio Ting's voice telling me to just re-start the food plan when I get home. And that's exactly what I did. No sense in beating yourself up really.

When I stepped on the weighing scale, I lost 1kg! Pretty good coming from a land where there's just so much food! I now weigh 92.2kg! Another 3kg or so to go and I would have hit the 30kg weight loss mark! Yippee! 

You're so soft... and cuddly!

It's just one of those days where I can't understand why my pictures end up on Multiply the wrong way around even though I've rotated them!

Meet Hunyi. Eldest daughter to YC and Pek Ching. Pek Ching has also gone on the adventure and has moved on to phase 2 of the program. 

Hunyi likes to hug me and what I really love about the hug is that she will say, "You're so soooooooft... and cuddly!" It makes me feel good that despite the weight loss, I'm still huggable. 

What's incredible about Hunyi is that her current weight is the amount of weight I have lost which is around 23kg. 

So it tickles me now when she latches herself on to me and hugs me because she's the "part" of me that I "lost"! I joke with YC and Pek Ching that eventually all 3 of their children combined will be the total weight that I will be losing! We'll see!