An Elephant Never Forgets

When I was big (maybe like an elephant?), I never forget how big I am. Now that I am smaller, I forget how big I used to be and I don't appreciate how small I've become. I'm no longer an elephant, perhaps that is why there is the memory loss? 

I had an interesting conversation with Ley Hian this evening about work and my life and I can relate it to this adventure. For the past 4 months in 2010, my life has been action, action, action. At work there's certainly a lot of action - some exciting, some a bit dramatic and some just that need to be done. In my spare time - there's clarinet, dance, singing, Toastmasters and loving being in my room. In relationships - there's building it with my parents, my friends, my colleagues, my Toastmasters and so on. In health - there's the adventure! In her eyes, she sees me do so much and achieve so much in such a short span of time. Isn't it about time I stop judging myself and appreciate my life and my accomplishments thus far?

It's not about a question of vanity, pride or ego. It's all about acknowledging that WE have achieved so much and that if we don't take the time to appreciate ourselves, who will do it? No matter how much someone else says it, how great you are, how good you've been doing, etc, if we don't appreciate ourselves, all their words will never ever be enough. It takes ourselves to fill our hearts and that love tank that we possess and to keep on replenishing who we are and how capable we are in achieving our dreams.

I am no longer an elephant so I do have slightly short term memory but this entry is going to help me remind me of how far I have come and that I appreciate myself for not giving up despite the weight going down slower than before. Who can really say, "hey, I lost 34kg in 8 months!"? Apart from some other adventurers, I DEFINITELY CAN!