Why?

Photo Insert: The entrance to the gym at JPMC.

Sometimes I wonder why do I pay someone to torture me?

I decided to go back to work out at the gym but since it has been awhile and I wondered about my level of motivation, I contacted the personal trainer whom I had trained with back in 2003 but I stopped because I fell down half a flight of stairs and the recovery took quite a while that I had lost my motivation to return to the gym.

It was still the same gym but the gym has improved tremendously with all the equipment available, the flooring, the new ladies section etc. And it's still reasonably priced!

I have only had 3 sessions so far. Only being able to fit gym in on Sunday mornings since my evenings during the week is filled with dancing.

The first session I was in so much pain because a few days before I had attended cross fit and my muscles were only beginning to wake up. We did lunges, squats with weights and focused on my back and triceps. Wearing the fitted T-shirt gave Tony the idea what to work on. It hurt like hell.

The second session, we focused on my upper body - chest, shoulders and biceps. I quickly came to realize, all the upper body strength I had has quickly dissolved. I struggled with the push ups, the chest press and the bicep curls. I thought to myself that once I regain my upper body strength, I will not take it for granted!

The third session we went back to legs, back and triceps. It was not as bad but my back muscles need a lot of work as I once again struggled.

In all of the sessions we fit in cardio of at least 30 minutes and tummy exercises.

I have renewed my gym membership with JPMC now and I will do my best to fit in some lunch time work outs. I still dream of a bikini body and I am taking one step at a time! This time, I will not take for granted how my body shapes up and just appreciate that I did it and that I can do it! All my 3 sessions would have been even more challenging if I was at my original weight of 120kg! I am truly blessed that I can do much more now!