Sticks & Stones

You can't win. When you're fat and overweight, people will talk. When you've lost lots of weight, people will talk. I have been told recently that I have a new name and it was emphasised that it's actually a compliment because they have seen me go from so big to now a smaller size. If I was to analyse it any further, it does not come close to a compliment! The new name is:

Zana Anorexic

Anorexia is a disease. I do not come close to being in this condition mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I think over the years, I have gotten immune to the "fat" names that I guess now I only need to get used to the "skinny" names. I also have come to realise that sometimes when people talk and give names or labels such as these, they do so unconsciously and also their intention may not be necessarily to hurt the person. 

As I was reflecting on this, my ego wanted to go into being self-righteous and explain to them the process I was putting myself through. But I knew that would not resolve anything. What was the point of trying to explain to the many people out there who have passed judgement? So I made the choice to strengthen my resolve that what I am doing is ultimately for MYSELF only. It is not to prove anything to the world. Nor is it to win a popularity or beauty contest. My intention has and always will be on this journey is to be fit and healthy and the weight loss was part and parcel of that process.

So as they say, sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me. Call me what you will as many people have done so in the past. But I will not hold on to that for at least I now KNOW what SUCCESS LOOKS and FEELS like!